Hi Lucy

I totally get the association thing and feeling safe with certain foods etc., everyone here knows how you feel on that one.

My suggestion will take a little time to build up, but perhaps gradually in the future you can look at something that will fit the step you are on, whichever step that is at the time, food wise, that can be your special food for special occasions, or treat yourself to something else that is not a food, it doesn't have to be expensive.

Christmas used to be hard for me, there are so many foods we associate with different times of the year, even smells, spices etc. For me, gorgeously scented bubble baths can be a good replacement, especially as my favourite scent is Oranges, and the scent always reminds me of Christmas and Satsumas. Another good one I have is Gingerbread Latte scented bubble bath.

Maybe you can have fun thinking of what you might have as your special little thing/s.

Love

Jane
xx

: Okay, had breakfast. 2 eggs and a
: piece of toast with peanut butter.

: I reached out and shared my struggle
: with my husband this morning. It
: was hard cause I felt like such a
: failure. Being honest, the other
: reason I didn't want to tell him
: about being sugar sensitive, the
: battle with addiction, how far in
: the steps, I had gotten before,
: and how I'd "fallen off the
: wagon" is because if he
: knows, its accountability. It's
: easier to lie to one's self when
: others don't know enough to call
: you on it...
: He was confused cause he didn't
: understand the sugar thing. How
: can one "really" be
: addicted to sugar? (Is there
: anything written up that is
: "the short version"
: written specifically for the
: support people in our lives that
: don't "get it"? Just
: curious.) Once I gave him the
: "jist" of it, he
: understood enough to be kind and
: supportive. Although he is one of
: those frustrating people that can
: walk right by a soft warm cookie,
: even if he IS hungry, he use to be
: a smoker. He started when he was
: 13 and has quit several times.
: Most recently 2 years ago. He
: understands the struggle, and the
: feelings of failure. It feels good
: to have his understanding and his
: support. It feels good to be
: "out of the closet"...
: though a little panicy too.
: It makes me sad that I am this way. I
: feel like I am a failure somehow,
: that I have this "flaw"
: in being sugar sensitive. On the
: other hand it feels like a relief
: that it explains SO much. It's
: good to have a place to be
: honest... finally.

: Ok, back to step one...Breakfast...
: Breakfast... ;)