Hi Lucy,

Oh, it's no fun to not feel good. You've done an amazing job *learning*...and coming back! I think that is huge! I'm always encouraged knowing that breakfast happens every day, and starting with a good breakfast helps life out tremendously. Do you have some favorite breakfast ideas?

Colette

: Oh for pitty sake!
: I am frustrated and upset with
: myself. I was doing really well.
: (Step 6) I felt so good! Then I
: went "home" (where I
: grew up) for vacation. Oh my
: stars! All the emotional triggers
: and cravings. My family has coffee
: and desert every night! At first,
: I was doing very well. For the
: first time in my life I didn't
: really feel out of control. It all
: started with pie! We went
: blueberry picking. Then a dear
: family member made blueberry pie
: from our harvested fruit. It was
: so "homey", warm and
: loving. (And a childhood memory of
: being loved.) It felt good and I
: didn't want to be left out. I felt
: so stable, "I thought I could
: handle it." Do I sound like
: an addict or what? Slippery
: slopes, and all that... It wasn't
: long before I was eating dessert
: like the rest of them, telling
: myself I was on vacation and that
: I would "fix it" when I
: got home. "Waaaaaaaa...
: " Now, I am a hot mess.
: Caught in the freakin cycle again,
: remembering all to well why I
: wanted out of this cycle so badly.
: I feel like such a failure. One
: good thing is that I got my eyes
: opened! I was "trying"
: this out before. It was an
: experiment to see if I would feel
: better. I felt better all right. I
: thought better. I had more energy.
: I coped better. I was more
: diplomatic in life's sticky
: situations. I was more patient
: with my family. I was less
: critical of myself. I was more
: laid back. All around I liked
: myself better. No sugar for the
: rest of my life overwhelms me to
: tears. I was wondering if I was
: really sugar sensitive... I got my
: flippin answer, lol.
: I know I am being candid. I just feel
: alone, and I figured if I did,
: there is probably somebody else
: out there that feels like me.
: Thanks for listening...