: Hi Lucy,

: You are hardly a failure

: We ALL have been there. It is just
: part of the process. There is no
: failure in this program, only
: learning how to do it better.

: Join the step one list. Come back
: with a beginner's mind. Work on
: JUST breakfast... Post here
: every day and let us support you.
: You will be fine and you can
: regroup.

: warmly,

: kathleen

Your words are very encouraging.
Thank you.
I will get up, and start again.
I sure hope I remember this the next time I am tempted. And somehow be able to separate the "cravings" (sugar vs. love and safety) and realize I can enjoy the warmth of family without the sugar. Its hard. It seems like so many of my warm and loving memories with family have sugar and coffee in them. Its sobering really. Even the smell and taste of coffee feels "safe" to me. I know its silly really. Coffee doesn't make one safe. But it makes me feel the safety of "home." That sense of home that really is people (my grandparents) that are now gone. It feels like its all back within my grasp in a cup of coffee and a piece of pie. I guess the chemical AND emotional stuff can make this process difficult. Somehow it helps to admit it.
Lucy