Hi Lisa

Please don't be discouraged or scared, your life can change beyond belief if you continue with step one and the rest of the steps. We all used to think we could handle the sugar, that's addiction, not wanting us to take it out, because at the time that we think that way, our brains think they need it, because they don't know that we can give them the same effects in other ways that are better, and don't make us sad afterwards.

I think my daughter was resigned to my moods back before I started this, she spent most of her time in her room, to avoid being shouted at over nothing because my blood sugar and chemistry were all over the place. Now we are best friends. I have been detoxed for three years, and have an amazing "inner peace and quiet confidence" as someone once said to me. That feeling is the best in the world, just to be happy in your own skin, without anything great having to happen to make it that way either. Just walking down the road, seeing people's beautiful gardens and sighing at how beautiful life can be. Before I started this program, I was clinically depressed to the point of many frequent suicide attempts, had panic attacks, and agoraphobia for two years, where I could not leave the house alone, as I thought the world was against me.

Now I have the confidence to do pretty much anything I want to do, and that is more than a lot of "balanced" people actually do, as I am single, but I will not let that stop me from doing things on my own. If people think I have no friends then let them think that lol.

It took me 6 months to get breakfast down properly, I was not a breakfast eater other than sweet cereals at least two hours after waking. It sounds like the first time you did this, you went a bit too fast. I know you won't want to take 6 months over breakfast, and nor did I, but even if you did, just doing step one would have you feeling much better for those 6 months than if you were just doing what you would normally do. And step one doesn't just make us feel better in the morning, it affects the whole day, so just think......this time, it might just work, just don't rush it. We are all here for you, and it will take as long as it takes.

And if your not sure if you are doing it right, you can always post what you are eating and we can help you out with that. Not many of us here found this easy at all, we have all been in the same boat.

Love

Jane
xx

: I am inspired by the stories I've
: read on the site, I'd love to find
: some kind of peace, happiness,
: acceptance, and stability but I
: don't know how, thought I'd use
: the forum here to just post but
: I'm not sure I'll do it again
: tomorrow! I went through all the
: steps in about six weeks last
: summer then off until now, thought
: I could handle the sugar (part of
: me still thinks I can) but hard to
: find peace, joy, be open for my
: kids (who seem now just resigned
: to my moods in a sad kind of way).
: Eating breakfast, joined a step
: one group and am enjoying it but
: feel overwhelmed, not sure if I
: doing it all right, afraid to fail
: again.