I don't like to focus on me. Always on my family and their problems. If I don't focus on me I get to have the excuses that I need in order to stay stuck in addiction.

What I have been going thru is big stuff but it shouldn't be getting in the way of my recovery. It seems quite clear to me now how my SS body and brain will latch on to anything to avoid recovery and healing. Be it weightloss, past abuse or whatever. I don't like admitting how sick I have been.

I would rather face anything than to admit how helpless I have been with sugar. I have been so strong in everything else in my life, it seems laughable to be brought down by something that to some people seems so insignificant.

Please help and support me, Laura