Healing is grand, happens in many areas of our lives.

There is something so comforting to
: me about being on a racquetball
: court. If you have never been on
: one this might not make any sense
: to you. I started playing about 18
: years ago (usually only play by
: myself). I have not stepped foot
: onto a court in a few years.
: Tonight I asked my BF if I could
: hitch a ride with him to the gym.
: Not sure what came over me since I
: have not been to the gym in a few
: years.

: I close my eyes as I gently shut the
: door to the court. Drinking in the
: beautiful sound. The sound the
: door makes when it closes is such
: a calming sound to me. Such a
: beautiful echo. A sound that
: touches my soul in such a soft,
: comforting and loving way.
: Standing in the middle of the room
: I let the ball roll out of my hand
: and hit the ground – gracefully
: bouncing back into my waiting
: hand. The sound it makes when it
: kisses the ground to me is
: breathtaking. So much so it gives
: me goose bumps. I wait for the
: echo to become silent. I close my
: eyes and let the ball fall from my
: hand again. Again goose bumps.
: Again silence. Again I let it
: fall. Over and over. Drinking in
: the sound each time it touches the
: ground. I usually don’t like
: noise. Most noise to me seems to
: have such sharp edges. Edges that
: claw and dig at my soul. But for
: some reason the sounds on a
: racquetball court don’t have any
: sharp edges. They are round and
: soft. They seem to gently touch my
: soul.

: From the first time I stepped foot
: onto a court I found that sound
: comforting. I played by myself for
: about 35 minutes tonight. I
: enjoyed it. I stopped because the
: gym was closing (it was 10 pm).
: But I think I would have stopped
: at that point anyway. The thing
: that I found amazing was I played
: and enjoyed it but I did not get
: the high from it that I remember
: getting. Back in the exercise
: addiction days once I was on the
: court (playing by myself) for 4
: hours, only taking water breaks
: and one 30-minute phone break.
: Feels good to know I can do
: something I once enjoyed so much
: without getting high.

: Kari