: I am brand new to the program.
: Reading the book now, but know I
: have finally found what's
: "wrong" with me. Of
: course I dove in head first
: thinking since I'm overall
: "healthy" I would be
: able to handle more, but no, I've
: already caved. I know, I
: know...eat breakfast with protein
: so I'm going to try that one day
: at a time for now. I also suffer
: from an eating disorder and am
: wondering if there are others in
: the same boat. Any advice? My
: biggest fear is gaining weight
: from the extra protein and carbs I
: guess. Not that sugar is really
: helping

I too dove in head first when I first read the books, and i too have an eating disorder! I am on step one now, not even journalling, just focussing on step one. I joined the radiantstepone list, and am getting a lot out of it. I don't mind if I gain a little weight, because I WANT that radiance that comes eventually if I just work the steps slowly, and in order. But I feel for you because I too used to be terrified of gaining even an ounce! I've had to just let go of that, and trust Kathleen and all these other people that it worked for them; it can work for me too. Thanks for your honesty , and I hope you hang in there with step one. Love, E-beth