Thea, how brave of you to write when forums are a challenge that must be a healing thing!

Do you feel more comfy on the yahoo lists? I'm the other way round, lol, I dont have to work hard viewing the forum but the lists are hard work for me. I still go there, as they are so amazing, its just I am aware the format is different to my brain

this feeling of disconnection - it can be a biochemical thing - and so I think you are doing so well identifying those areas of resistance, and asking for help .

how can we help you best?
I remember a big disconnect for me with movement and I chose to do a 7 posts in 7 days on the movement list. It grew a lot better and that connection grew for me. Mind you, theres times when just posting my breakfast gets me back in touch. Have you any ideas about what you'd like to try?