Hi Laura

Another thing I want to say about the weight issue is this; I heard a saying somewhere, I don't think it originated here, but I think it so fits this program and was very relevant to me, in my situation.

The saying is "Only once you accept yourself can you then begin to change," and I used to be overweight when I first detoxed 3 years ago. Gradually, I began to not care about the weight anymore (at a size 18 when on previous sugar containing calorie diets, I had been feeling fat at a size 12) because I was happy in other aspects of my life that I didn't know could change (brain chemistry being the reason.) Virtually as soon as I got this no longer bothered about the weight loss aspect, a strange thing happened. The weight started to come off, and in total I lost 100 pounds in 2009. I don't think this is coincidence. For one thing, the not caring about the weight anymore was obviously caused by being in balance, but another thing, I think perhaps there is something going on behind the scenes that stops things happening when we try too hard. Like when people try to become pregnant and then some of them give up after years and become pregnant then.

It seems when we are in the right place to just let it go and live, miracles occur (or perhaps trying too hard/wanting something too much is just a symptom of imbalanced brain chemistry too. I guess it is!)

Love

Jane
xx

: Hi - It has been several weeks since
: I attended my first Ranch. The
: people were wonderful, Kathleen
: was so kind and I learned so much.
: Having program-friendly food was
: heavenly. Part of me wanted to
: stay forever.

: Then something happened. As I sat in
: my seat on the airplane for the
: flight home and tried to buckle my
: seat belt it wouldn't fit all the
: way around me. For the first time
: in my life I had to ask for a seat
: belt extender. I was embarrassed
: and felt horrible about myself. So
: what did I do? I blamed the
: program (not all the sugar I have
: eaten all those years and years
: before, of course!). And vowed to
: join Weight Watchers as soon as I
: got home. I did -and lost 6 lbs.
: in 3 weeks and gained back 6 lbs.
: in 2 1/2 weeks.

: So what have I learned? That I am
: truly an addict with a very big
: case of diet head. I am trying to
: be gentle with myself and tell
: myself that maybe if I had been on
: step 2 or 3 instead of 1 when this
: all happened I would have laughed
: at myself and been more patient as
: well.

: I have heard it said that there is no
: failure in this program but I do
: have some very big doubts about
: myself.

: On a positive note I did eat a
: program-friendly breakfast this
: morning-steak with
: hashbrowns-enough protein and on
: time, within an hour. I am posting
: here and asking for support. I
: also plan on getting myself over
: to the depression list as well
: since my depression has been
: creeping back in the last week.

: It is good to be back Laura