Hi Hannah! ~smile~

I hear that you are feeling overwhelmed, and I totally get that! It is a perfectly normal thing to have the feelings that you describe! I won't go into my very long story, lol, but I'll just say that these issues and opportunities work themselves out the longer you are on the program and doing the food.

I know lots of people doing RR who have learned to adapt their lifestyles so that they can do "normal" things in life, and you can do it too, if you want to! It's just one step at a time, and you can take it as slowly as you want to, or you can move quickly if you're desperate, lol, like I was, and some kind soul will likely chime in and help you to slow down and patch things up.

It's almost five years since I started doing the food, and I now very comfortably handle ALL that life brings me in much better ways than the crazy way I lived before when I was living for my next pound of chocolate or frozen custard/ice cream fix.

I am just back from ten days on the road, living out of coolers, restaurants, and the occasional grocery store. I attend oodles of parties and cookouts and picnics, I go out with family and friends regularly. I cook, I host and I enjoy being a guest. I travel, I exercise, I fly, I LIVE! And I gratefully do it without the "benefit" that I thought I had in eating and drinking and using my drugs of choice.

You can heal, Hannah, and you can feel a lot better than you do now, for sure! Just start with breakfast, and keep on taking care of yourself to the best of your ability. My life changed completely in some ways, and in others ways, my life is very much the same. I'm living the life that I imagined, and I hope you will take the opportunity to do the same!

Best always, and happy breakfast! Are you on a step list already, Hannah?
Susan S

: Hello everyone,

: I am just sitting here at work. I
: can't concentrate and I just
: wanted to share with you guys. I
: am having the hardest time
: accepting the fact that I have an
: addiction and that my life is
: going to have to change completely
: if I want to get better. I don't
: want to have to give up ice cream
: and white rolls for the rest of my
: life. I just want to be normal!!!
: I just want to be able to enjoy
: those things with everyone else.
: It really is so hard to think
: about when I do make the change
: for good, how my life is going to
: be different. How are cookouts,
: office lunches, and dinner dates
: going to be different? How can I
: walk past a Cold Stone without
: going in? I feel so overwhelmed
: right now!

: Hannah