Laura- welcome back!!!! It sounds like you've been through such a rough time. So sorry to hear that. Those airline people are awful!!
You are so much more than what you weigh -amd this program is here to help heal and support all of you..
I really identify with the worry about gaining weight in the program too. I just have to think that things will even out for me as I work my way through the steps.

Hi - It has been several weeks since
: I attended my first Ranch. The
: people were wonderful, Kathleen
: was so kind and I learned so much.
: Having program-friendly food was
: heavenly. Part of me wanted to
: stay forever.

: Then something happened. As I sat in
: my seat on the airplane for the
: flight home and tried to buckle my
: seat belt it wouldn't fit all the
: way around me. For the first time
: in my life I had to ask for a seat
: belt extender. I was embarrassed
: and felt horrible about myself. So
: what did I do? I blamed the
: program (not all the sugar I have
: eaten all those years and years
: before, of course!). And vowed to
: join Weight Watchers as soon as I
: got home. I did -and lost 6 lbs.
: in 3 weeks and gained back 6 lbs.
: in 2 1/2 weeks.

: So what have I learned? That I am
: truly an addict with a very big
: case of diet head. I am trying to
: be gentle with myself and tell
: myself that maybe if I had been on
: step 2 or 3 instead of 1 when this
: all happened I would have laughed
: at myself and been more patient as
: well.

: I have heard it said that there is no
: failure in this program but I do
: have some very big doubts about
: myself.

: On a positive note I did eat a
: program-friendly breakfast this
: morning-steak with
: hashbrowns-enough protein and on
: time, within an hour. I am posting
: here and asking for support. I
: also plan on getting myself over
: to the depression list as well
: since my depression has been
: creeping back in the last week.

: It is good to be back Laura