Hi Gretchen

It will more than likely be the stress that was making you feel so bad, which then led to the more sugar to try and make up for it, lol, our brains are so clever, but not always in the way we want them to be.

You didn't let yourself down foodwise at all, if you were on step one and only just starting step 2, then you did really well to even stick to breakfast through all of the stress. Breakfast was the hardest part for me for a long time, and still can be when things are off lifewise. I just have to do automatic pilot and eat it anyway, I always feel better with the next meal.

Well done with everything that was going off!

I live in the UK and my daughter is going to college in September and doing Law, she wants to be a Lawyer also. There is a thing here in this family, I was a Legal Secretary years ago, and was training to be a Lawyer and that fell through, my brother is a Chief Inspector in the Police Force. I think it has something to do with us all having being bullied and hating injustice. Either that or the fact that sugar sensitive people (my daughter isn't, but I have brought her up with the hatred of injustice) always feel so misunderstood and badly treated, with the "hard done to" feelings.

You will also have noticed, after typing your message that writing about it makes it appear a lot less bad than we think it is. It's easy to beat ourselves up but then when we see in writing what has really been happening, it's not so bad after all.

Love

Jane
xx

: Okay all -

: I'm admitting it - I am pouting.
: I was jumping into step two with
: both feet and I felt great. So
: connected to my body - this hour
: by hour check in was a new world.
: I was feeling so grounded, I was
: making some great choices, I felt
: like I had some control over my
: emotions and life.

: And then I had ten days of some major
: stress at work. (I'm a lawyer. I
: had to meet a hard deadline to
: pull together an enormous proposal
: that was based on input from a lot
: of others).

: Well,it was great at first. I was
: handling the whole thing so much
: better because of my journal and
: being more solid on food. I was
: breathing a lot and taking things
: really pretty calmly. Then I was
: journaling my body's stress
: responses and then I noticed
: myself eating more sugar and then
: I was getting distressed and just
: let go of the journal and crash! I
: did great with work but my kids
: are so sad I was gone so much, my
: partner's exhausted, I'm
: exhausted, and I feel like
: I"m starting all over with
: step 2 (kept eating breakfast
: through all this at least - yay!)

: So now it's been a week of
: recovering. And I'm having a lot
: of trouble picking the journal up
: again. I'm mad at myself more than
: anything - I let myself down. And
: I've got another big deadline at
: the end of July and will probably
: do it again when things get rough.
: And it makes it so hard to even
: try.

: But what else can I do? I glimpsed
: something really neat there for
: a... Whoa. I just looked at my
: journal. I haven't been
: feeling that connection but
: when I look at the pages I've
: actually written so much more
: consistently in the last week than
: ever before.

: Wow, maybe the sky isn't falling
: quite so much. Maybe I just
: get to be learning..... And maybe
: that blissfulness I'm missing
: wasn't the program at all but some
: BE building up from the stress????

: Ok, I'm confused... but thanks for
: listening all!!