Hi - It has been several weeks since I attended my first Ranch. The people were wonderful, Kathleen was so kind and I learned so much. Having program-friendly food was heavenly. Part of me wanted to stay forever.

Then something happened. As I sat in my seat on the airplane for the flight home and tried to buckle my seat belt it wouldn't fit all the way around me. For the first time in my life I had to ask for a seat belt extender. I was embarrassed and felt horrible about myself. So what did I do? I blamed the program (not all the sugar I have eaten all those years and years before, of course!). And vowed to join Weight Watchers as soon as I got home. I did -and lost 6 lbs. in 3 weeks and gained back 6 lbs. in 2 1/2 weeks.

So what have I learned? That I am truly an addict with a very big case of diet head. I am trying to be gentle with myself and tell myself that maybe if I had been on step 2 or 3 instead of 1 when this all happened I would have laughed at myself and been more patient as well.

I have heard it said that there is no failure in this program but I do have some very big doubts about myself.

On a positive note I did eat a program-friendly breakfast this morning-steak with hashbrowns-enough protein and on time, within an hour. I am posting here and asking for support. I also plan on getting myself over to the depression list as well since my depression has been creeping back in the last week.

It is good to be back Laura