Kari

Your post again brought tears to my eyes, especially with you saying "I am done with this program." I think there have been times like that for a lot of us here, but something inside of us just makes us keep going, we not only remember what the alternative will be like over time, (eating sugars again) but part of us also knows this is the right thing to do. I know it can be so very hard at times, and I am sooooo proud of you for reaching for that journal.

Lots of love

Jane
xx

: ***The smell of horses and the feel
: of their soft noses.

: I had what I think is a breakthrough
: with journaling on Sunday. I had a
: conversation with a friend that
: really upset me Sunday evening.
: Plus it was the day before my
: cycle started so that did not help
: in the least. Well the
: conversation left me very upset
: and it had been ages since I felt
: that upset. I still had to update
: Sunday in my journal and do my
: weekly review, which I do on
: Sunday evenings. I was so upset I
: was like ‘screw everything. I am
: done with this program. I have had
: enough. And no I am not
: journaling. I felt like a little
: child arms crossed, lip stuck out.
: You can’t make me I am not going
: to do it. Well I got ready for bed
: and as I crawled into bed there
: was my journal. With out a second
: thought I grabbed my journal
: finished up Sunday, did my daily
: review and then my weekly review.
: I could tell I was not 100%
: present while I was doing the
: review. I could still sense that
: little part of me off in the
: corner arms crossed, lip out,
: glaring at the world. But the cool
: thing is this part of me did not
: win this time.

: Kari