Posting a little earlier today so I can also check in on step three. I really wish I had my journal at this point. I think I might have had a day four. Not sure. I don’t normally get them. I was so edgy starting off pretty early on today. I just felt not right at all. I actually tried to find my Sunday Homework post to just double check to see what happened but cannot seem to find it.

Ate breakfast on the porch this morning. Only ten minutes but that was okay. By 11:00 I was so edgy I had to eat. Thank goodness I had brought food with me to work (instead of going home to eat). So I ate some WW lasagna at 11:00. So I really needed to eat diner by 4:00 but that did not happen. I did not eat until 6. Had to work until 4:30 than ran a few errands and picked up a rotisserie chicken, so I could eat it right away when I got home. By 5:45 I was extremely sick to my stomach. I don’t think it was due to low blood sugars because I know for sure my blood sugars were not low. But I had not had proper food in almost 7 hours by them. I got home and BF was very concerned. He could see I was not feeling well. I had some rotisserie chicken, brown rice and a small cucumber. I felt better as soon as I started eating. I don’t push my times very often anymore. I can see how important meal timings are. Got a lecture from BF ‘you know if you eat lunch that early you need to make sure you eat dinner early as well’ yes yes I know. Got to love the support I get at home. I get support at home, I get support at work and I get support here. I am very lucky to have such a wonderful support network. I think that is another reason that I am so frustrated with myself; with all these people around me supporting me – why can I not support myself. I know I need it.

I also brought lasagna to a coworker today. The one I am training. I only work with him a few days a week; Wednesday being the full day. Well he does not have a lot of money and is going through some really tough stuff right now. There are times he really can not afford to eat. So thought I would bring him some food. Hard to concentrate and learn new things when you are not eating. So he ate that but then around 3:00 a meeting was being let out and they had left over food, pasta’s and breads and sweets. He loaded up. About 30 minutes later the training was over – he could not keep his eyes open. I don’t miss those days, the tired from my carb filled lunch. I think in three years of doing this program I have felt like that only once or twice. Don’t miss it in the least.

I am going to try to steer clear of ww toast in the mornings. I know flours (even program friendly ones are not good for me). The WW toast is also something that made it’s way back into my diet this last year. I had not had any for almost two years prior to that.

Kari