Hi Jane,

The Things To Do that I listed were just examples, and I didn't mean doing them to perfection. And I think liking/not liking to do them is not so much the issue, if they are things that need to be done. The point is not to procrastinate forever.

What I am saying is that I would feel more radiant if I were not magnetized to my computer to the exclusion of other activities.

Good that you are more accepting yourself these days and are more open to having company by your side

Acceptance of myself has increased tenfold since I started the program, no question about it. Also acceptance of others.

I'm off to breakfast, lol.
Ten minutes left to keep it within the hour

Sarit

: Hi Sarit

: I would think that breakfast within
: the hour would make a difference,
: but also, it's still not always
: easy to be motivated myself,
: (maybe we just have too high
: standards for ourselves, lol.)

: I absolutely hate gardening, and
: luckily my daughter and her
: boyfriend do that for me, mow the
: grass, I have a very large back
: garden, which is nice of course,
: just not so nice for a single mum
: to spend an hour mowing with no
: strong guy here to do it for me,
: lol.

: Everything else, well, cleaning isn't
: exactly always great, but what I
: have noticed, and sometimes think
: this is more important than having
: the house spotless, is that when
: people visit the house now, I am
: not running round shoving things
: behind the sofa and apologising
: for the mess, I think well, if
: they want to come see me, they
: will have to take the house as it
: is. If I know someone is coming
: round, then I will usually at
: least clean the front room, etc.,
: but even then I don't go out of
: the way to do it. It still looks
: "lived in" and not
: spotless. I can't remember the
: last time I apologised to anyone
: for the state of the house.

: I think that acceptance of it myself
: makes a big difference somehow,
: and I think that in itself is part
: of radiance, not JUST having the
: house clean. Having said that,
: also, the house is NEVER as untidy
: as it used to be. My ex husband
: used to point out how I used to
: take up the whole sofa, I would be
: sat in the middle, and have my
: things, books, puzzle books etc.,
: spread around me, so that there
: was no room to sit next to me. I
: didn't realise I did this, but I
: can see now that I did that in the
: past. I did feel uncomfortable
: with having someone sit next to
: me, and if I walked in a room and
: there was a choice of a single
: comfy chair or to sit on a sofa
: where someone else could sit next
: to me at some point, I would
: always sit on the chair. Now, I
: automatically tend to sit on
: sofas, and I still have my stuff
: on the sofa with me at home, but
: it's all tucked up at one end now,
: so if people want to sit next to
: me they can. It's odd how these
: things happen, lol.

: So, it's not always the OBVIOUS
: things that we think should be
: part of radiance that are.
: Acceptance that things aren't
: perfect and that's ok is almost
: even better, if that makes sense.

: Love

: Jane
: xx