Hi Sarit

I would think that breakfast within the hour would make a difference, but also, it's still not always easy to be motivated myself, (maybe we just have too high standards for ourselves, lol.)

I absolutely hate gardening, and luckily my daughter and her boyfriend do that for me, mow the grass, I have a very large back garden, which is nice of course, just not so nice for a single mum to spend an hour mowing with no strong guy here to do it for me, lol.

Everything else, well, cleaning isn't exactly always great, but what I have noticed, and sometimes think this is more important than having the house spotless, is that when people visit the house now, I am not running round shoving things behind the sofa and apologising for the mess, I think well, if they want to come see me, they will have to take the house as it is. If I know someone is coming round, then I will usually at least clean the front room, etc., but even then I don't go out of the way to do it. It still looks "lived in" and not spotless. I can't remember the last time I apologised to anyone for the state of the house.

I think that acceptance of it myself makes a big difference somehow, and I think that in itself is part of radiance, not JUST having the house clean. Having said that, also, the house is NEVER as untidy as it used to be. My ex husband used to point out how I used to take up the whole sofa, I would be sat in the middle, and have my things, books, puzzle books etc., spread around me, so that there was no room to sit next to me. I didn't realise I did this, but I can see now that I did that in the past. I did feel uncomfortable with having someone sit next to me, and if I walked in a room and there was a choice of a single comfy chair or to sit on a sofa where someone else could sit next to me at some point, I would always sit on the chair. Now, I automatically tend to sit on sofas, and I still have my stuff on the sofa with me at home, but it's all tucked up at one end now, so if people want to sit next to me they can. It's odd how these things happen, lol.

So, it's not always the OBVIOUS things that we think should be part of radiance that are. Acceptance that things aren't perfect and that's ok is almost even better, if that makes sense.

Love

Jane
xx

: OK, here's the thing - I must be
: scrupulously honest.

: When I realized about the smileys, I
: thought - hey that looks like
: radiance!
: But I know I don't feel radiant. I do
: feel much, much better in all
: respects - physical, mental,
: emotional. But it's still not
: radiance.

: The main hitch is this immobility I
: still feel - a resistance to
: getting off my duff and Doing
: Something - be it a chore or a fun
: thing. Instead, I gravitate to my
: computer and spend hours in front
: of the screen. I wouldn't call
: this an amoeba thing, as I used to
: vegetate in front of the computer
: before RR, only with oodles of
: cookies and sweet coffee to boot.

: Socially, I am much better - e.g.,
: last week and this week are full
: of going-out activities with
: hubby/daughter/friends.

: But personally there is a big
: something missing - a joie de
: vivre, a getting up and DOING.
: Doesn't matter what - cleaning,
: baking, weeding, planting seeds in
: garden, clearing the clutter in my
: workroom, whatever.

: And here comes the honesty part.
: The parts of the program I do, I do
: consistently.
: But there are parts of the program I
: consistently do not do.
: I just wrote out a list for myself of
: what I do/don't, and I will share
: it here.

: Things I do:
: 1. I have enough protein &
: complex carb at every meal.
: 2. I have 3 meals, sometimes
: protein/complex carb snacks.
: 3. I eat browns (not whites).
: 4. I eat no sugar.

: Things I don't:
: 1. BF is not within the hour, lunch
: and dinner are not at consistent
: times (depends how early or late
: BF was)
: 2. I don’t journal (did, then
: stopped, did, then stopped, etc.)
: 3. Sometimes snacks are not proteins
: & browns (eg, an orange, a
: date and nuts).
: 4. I don’t eat greens (love veggies,
: but hard to digest).
: 4. I don’t do potato (because have
: dinner quite late, and hard to
: "arrange" it).
: 5. I don’t exercise.

: As you can see, I "DON'T"
: much more than I "DO".
: I am on steps X,Y,Z before having
: step 1 all wrapped up (timing!).

: I know what my next action has to be
: - eat BF within the hour.

: Thanks for listening,
: Sarit