Tonight I posted about eating a salmon burger that I had to gag down. After dinner I did have slight anxiety. But I think it was simply due to me eating something unknown and a little anxious about it. Well around 8 we took the dogs for their nightly walk and were gone for about an hour. During the walk is when I realized how amazing I actually felt. I has smiling and laughing, dancing and just being silly but in a good way. When we got home I started doing chores around the house. For a long time at nights I didn’t want to do anything but simply sit on the couch with computer in lap – tv on in the back ground. I would feel down and drained.

A few times when it dawned on me how well I felt I started feeling anxious because it is such a different feeling. Like when I was a kid. To not feel anxiety felt like something was wrong.

It’s one day at a time with some things. With this its one meal at a time. I cannot believe how much one simple meal can change things. Oh and tonight was the first time in a VERY long time I did not have any sweet with dinner. I actually almost had some raspberry juice but thought ‘Naw - I will just have a glass of water’.

Kari