thank you all for all the responses!

i have been thinking about the sugar thing and as i have chocolate in the fridge from 2 christmases ago i dont think i can be addicted! it is not that that causes the anxiety.

i began to eat meat/protein just a couple of weeks ago after years of being vegetarian and although the pain and sadness of life's harsh blows are still there i am not feeling them so physically! the anxiety was agony for years and all for the sake of a bit of bacon! i cant believe it and am still waiting to be struck down by the pain again . . .

hi to every one who sent me welcome messages