Hi, mosaic! Actually I am starting to journal in a different place now, and I don't even understand it yet. But for lack of a better word, it feels "clean" in a way it never has. I suppose this is beginner's mind, because journaling has been the one step that has always had "stuff" around it. All other steps have merely played their roles as I worked them. But while I've always gone through long stretches of time journaling and doing it well and thoroughly, and have gained from it, I've always always done it grudgingly, even angrily.

It doesn't feel that way now, and I don't know exactly why.

But at any rate, yesterday morning was a disaster - I had thought I could time it to where I could get to my doc's office early enough to only be late by about 20 minutes. Normally she runs on time or early, so I got there 30 minutes earlier than my appointment.

No luck, and it was the first time ever that my doctor's office was running late. By the time I had my blood drawn it was a full two hours after my feet hitting the floor.

I felt a little off the rest of the day, but largely okay. This morning (and my crashes are only a day or two later) I was in tears over a situation at home that I know wouldn't have bothered me much.

It's okay, I have stuff planned for today. I am leaving early for the holiday, I'm going to do a little shopping just for me (I rarely shop just for me unless my clothes are falling off my body) - and I'm going to treat myself to a nice lunch out. Dinner's already planned and I have a nice show to go to tonight and tomorrow night (my husband is a drama teacher and his kids are doing a show both nights.)

All will be well. I just have to wait out today and tomorrow.

And I'm going to journal all of it.

Do you feel like there's something kind of, I don't know, alchemical that happens with the journal? It almost feels like something from a sci-fi film - like once I feel something out of whack, when I've put it into my journal its power over influencing me at my core is either diminished or removed even? That seems to be what's happening.