Have not been here in a while and did not make ranch this year. I feel all out of sorts. I need to try to make a point to get connected again. Maybe set up homework for myself every night for 30 minutes and read and respond.

Meals have been really light lately and I think that has been a major issue. I take my breakfast to work with me and it sits un eaten or half eaten. I eat lunch at work (I say eat but I mean pick at it and end up throwing most of it out). I have the ability to come home for lunch but only come home long enough to let the dogs out. I need to make it a point to stop everything and just eat.

I did not think I was feeling too bad. I have been having a little bit of an issue concentrating but not having any issues with getting angry (like in the past) but I also don't have any stress at home and not much at work. But today I noticed that when a coworker sent me an email that critiqued something I just lost it (thank goodness in my office alone behind closed doors). But I was able to set back and go - "Woa - Settle down you are not upset about what she wrote. And no you don't hate her! Take a look at your breakfast sitting there uneaten - that is what your issue is." My Coworker knows about my food. So later that day I approached her and said "If I come across angry or defensive the next several days I apologize. I need to get my program back on track"

Today was an eye-opener for me. I remember feeling like that every day all day long and I don't like it. I need to get back into eating breakfast before work. Coming home and eating lunch at home. Dinners are normally good. Still working on quality right now. And again my journal is no where in site. Back to step one. Back to reconnecting.

So I guess this can count as homework for day #1.

Kari