I was trying to do everything all at once when I started here. I was at a normal weight, but a MAJOR out of control sugar binger who exercised like a fiend. I started with step one and the first thing that happened was that my blood sugar started stabilize and I started to calm down. I decided to trust this program because 30 years of addiction and in and out of recovery programs/rehabs got me here. I am in my 7 month and things are a lot more hopeful now.
The best and easiest place to start is Step 1. I thought I had it down, but actually it took me 3 months to master it.
Jeffrey
: No one can possibly understand
: because I do not look like I need
: to lose weight and therefore
: people would hate me for being
: ungrateful. I am 5'4" 128 lbs
: and I work out 6 days a week with
: cardio, weights and yoga. I feel
: stupid even writing on here
: because I feel like I should be
: happy that I am small but it's not
: about size. It's about the
: depression I feel after quitting
: alcohol and then trying to quit
: sugar for the last 6 weeks and
: failing (at the sugar). I feel
: like a crazy person. All I think
: about is sugar after about 12:00pm
: each day. It's awful. I do the
: food correctly but mentally I
: can't handle the pain of having
: nothing to numb me so, I binge on
: sugar. I used to drink about
: 2-3 drinks 5-6 nights a week so
: now that I am off alcohol, sugar
: addiction has become that much
: more apparent. I am so sick of not
: being in control of my life. Today
: I binged and then fell asleep in
: the middle of the day. It makes me
: hate myself and I feel so guilty.
: I started working out at the same
: time I quit alcohol, 6 weeks ago,
: and I have been binging on sugar
: ever since about every other day.
: My weight has stayed steady, but I
: have been an emotional wreck every
: day. I just don't know how to live
: without sugar. I feel like I am
: mourning the loss of a best friend
: so I keep hanging on for dear life
: even though I know it's bad for
: me. I wish i was stronger. I am
: feeling like I should just go cold
: turkey and get the detox over
: with, because I have been trying
: to eat sugar steadily and all I do
: is binge. I can't handle eating
: just a little bit. Any supportive
: comments would be helpful from you
: guys who have done this before
: because I am having a really hard
: emotional time right now and I
: don't know what to do. I feel like
: such a failure.
