Ok, I will respond in your note....

: Hi Kathleen,

: Step 1.
: I do the breakfast everyday within 60
: minutes of waking up. I eat 21
: grams of protein (2 eggs + 2
: whites) and a complex carb (1
: slice of Ezekial bread). I've been
: doing the breakfast for about 2
: months now, and I have always done
: a good breakfast. Now I'm just
: insisting that it's withing 60
: minutes of waking.

Try having a different carb. I slice of toast really is not enough brown.

: Step 2.
: I've also been journaling what I eat
: and how I feel (I bought your
: journal), for about 2 weeks. It's
: been really hard to see on paper
: that every other day is a sugar
: binge. It's also interesting how
: out of touch I am with my
: feelings. I guess I've just
: supressed them and worked through
: them by numbing. I was drinking
: 2-3 drinks of alcohol daily for
: about 7 years, which I have now
: quit. Maybe I just need to be more
: patient.

and how long have you been sober?

: Step 3.
: I eat 3 meals a day with protein. I
: have always eaten a good breakfast
: and dinner. In the past lunch was
: where I struggled, but now I've
: been getting 3 meals with 21 g
: protein and complex carb daily. I
: find it really difficult not to
: eat the sugar alone or before my
: meal. My body still wants the
: spike. I'm so used to the drama
: that sadly being steady seems
: boring. With dinner I have only
: been eating veggies as my complex
: carb, because I am trying to lose
: weight for my job (entertainment).
: Is this perhaps where I am
: screwing up? Should I be eating a
: "brown" carb along with
: my protein and veggies to prevent
: binging? Unfortunately I need to
: lose between 5-10 pounds in the
: next 6 weeks to succeed at my job
: (the camera ads 10lbs). Because I
: work out and eat quite well, I
: know that those 5-10 pounds are
: 100% based on my sugar binges. If
: I can eliminate or control better
: the sugar, I can be professionally
: where I need to be.

yes, well eating only vegetables and sugar is hardly going to help.

: Step 4.
: I've been getting the vitamins every
: other day and am trying to get
: them every day now. Also, I have
: been doing 1 or 2 small red spuds
: every night and whoa, what a
: miraculous effect those have. I
: have been doing the potato
: consistently for 2 weeks.

: Step 5.
: I have shifted all my whites to brown
: with food not including my sugar
: binges.

: So, this is pretty much where I am
: at. I have 6 weeks to lose 5-10
: pounds and am an emotional wreck
: (jeckle and hyde) about going
: through this program.
: Unfortunately, I don't have time
: to do this slowly. What step am I
: even on? Do you have any
: suggestions of what I can be
: focusing on right now? I am ever
: so grateful for you allowing me to
: spout off here my problems, when
: I'm sure they sound so silly
: compared to others. Some days it
: feels like the whole world is
: crashing down around me, and some
: days I am on top of the world. I
: just want to be steady, and free
: of this addiction. Any advice
: would be helpful. By the way, I
: have already bought this book for
: a few of my family members. It's
: great.

Tell me how long you have been sober...and I will respond to the rest.

kathleen