: No one can possibly understand
: because I do not look like I need
: to lose weight and therefore
: people would hate me for being
: ungrateful. I am 5'4" 128 lbs
: and I work out 6 days a week with
: cardio, weights and yoga. I feel
: stupid even writing on here
: because I feel like I should be
: happy that I am small but it's not
: about size. It's about the
: depression I feel after quitting
: alcohol and then trying to quit
: sugar for the last 6 weeks and
: failing (at the sugar). I feel
: like a crazy person. All I think
: about is sugar after about 12:00pm
: each day. It's awful. I do the
: food correctly but mentally I
: can't handle the pain of having
: nothing to numb me so, I binge on
: sugar. I used to drink about
: 2-3 drinks 5-6 nights a week so
: now that I am off alcohol, sugar
: addiction has become that much
: more apparent. I am so sick of not
: being in control of my life. Today
: I binged and then fell asleep in
: the middle of the day. It makes me
: hate myself and I feel so guilty.
: I started working out at the same
: time I quit alcohol, 6 weeks ago,
: and I have been binging on sugar
: ever since about every other day.
: My weight has stayed steady, but I
: have been an emotional wreck every
: day. I just don't know how to live
: without sugar. I feel like I am
: mourning the loss of a best friend
: so I keep hanging on for dear life
: even though I know it's bad for
: me. I wish i was stronger. I am
: feeling like I should just go cold
: turkey and get the detox over
: with, because I have been trying
: to eat sugar steadily and all I do
: is binge. I can't handle eating
: just a little bit. Any supportive
: comments would be helpful from you
: guys who have done this before
: because I am having a really hard
: emotional time right now and I
: don't know what to do. I feel like
: such a failure.

Hi there,

I am glad you found us. These feelings are actually very much a function of what is going on biochemically.
The problem is that you are focused on trying to quite the sugar rather than working on getting steady and settled. It is not possible to simply stop the sugar without getting your brain and body healed.

I have a couple of suggestions...
just work on step one. Just that. learn the four parts, join the step one list. talk to other people.

and join with the depression list or the recovery list...you will get a lot of support for dealing with the feelings.

And actually we ALL understand just how you feel and we can help you.

kathleen