Good job on step 1 food. What I found was that my sick brain/body was out of control and making a conscious decision to start healing was the best thing I could do for myself. Once the healing started kicking in, the binges starting reducing in frequency and intensity. This is someone who used to eat himself through 3 bags of groceries every night with no problem.

Since I am sick, there was no need to beat myself up for being ill. If I focus on the cure (the steps), then the potency of the illness starts diminishing. Why should I beat myself up for being sick when I can use all that psychic energy for making myself better?

Jeffrey

: Ok, so I've decided to start
: with the steps and the last days
: I've eaten my breakfast the way I
: should.

: But I feel it is VERY hard not to
: quit all at once. I become worse
: and worse in this disease, I eat
: more and more sugar every day.

: Today I ate good breakfast, 20
: minutes after waking up: Oatmeal
: with berries, pumpkin seeds and
: butter and two boiled eggs.

: then I binged

: I'm SO ashamed and I would never want
: anyone to know about this. And I
: could surely have eaten even more
: if I hadn't fallen asleep.

: Every day gets worse. I eat more and
: more and my life consists of
: eating and sleeping. My weight
: goes up up. I feel stressed! I
: need to quit NOW! That's how I
: feel. Please give me confidence to
: continue taking this step by step!