Ok, so I've decided to start with the steps and the last days I've eaten my breakfast the way I should.

But I feel it is VERY hard not to quit all at once. I become worse and worse in this disease, I eat more and more sugar every day.

Today I ate good breakfast, 20 minutes after waking up: Oatmeal with berries, pumpkin seeds and butter and two boiled eggs.

then I binged

I'm SO ashamed and I would never want anyone to know about this. And I could surely have eaten even more if I hadn't fallen asleep.

Every day gets worse. I eat more and more and my life consists of eating and sleeping. My weight goes up up. I feel stressed! I need to quit NOW! That's how I feel. Please give me confidence to continue taking this step by step!