Hi Kath,
I feel I'm in a very similar position to Jeffrey.

I can't even begin to talk about how much lack of self-esteem and compassion I have for myself, because of how horrible my eating has been for years, the things I've done to get the things I craved...I'd go to any lengths to get it! (well, not that severely, no one's been killed haha, so far! J/K!!) But yes, I completely feel many of the anxieties and worries that Jeffrey has stated.

I find that I don't even know if I'm really hungry or not, I don't think I have any clue of real appetite. I'm just emotionally hungry all the time so I make these decisions based on what will immediately sky-rocket my blood sugar...

I'm sorry, I don't mean to complain. I'm just feeling very stuck and not sure where to pick up the pieces again...

: Jeffrey,

: I do understand that you you don't
: believe this..but doing the food
: will clean it up.

: And honestly, , you really
: don't know yet what step 7 is
: about...or what RR entails
: We don't unfold the graduate course
: when you are just starting.

: Right now you feel bad because you
: are biochemically imbalanced.
: Let's get that squared away first.

: And you know, in 12 step programs,
: the first step is always
: surrender. in RR, the first step
: has some surrender
: too....surrender and trust in the
: concept that things might work.

: kathleen