Dear Sharon,

I started to write a response & then hit the wrong key & zapped back to the index! Will try to start again. Reading your post I said- boy is that me!

Too tired to shop, too tired to do all the dirty dishes, too tired to cook,blah blah blah! & that's exactly how I feel too. Your slippery slope is so mine too.

Years ago I had a boss who proudly proclaimed when I started work and asked about lunch," I don't have time for lunch", which meant you shldn't eat lunch either. I was the only in the office who ate lunch, but by God I ate it. I didn't care.

It's so easy for us to put ourselves last. I remember reading something about women smoking. This woman smoked & then realized that the times she took to go outside & smoke (5 minutes) was the only time she took for herself in the whole day. How sad.

Thanks for reading this. E.

: I just posted on the Step 1 list
: about having a few months
: "off program" due to my
: need to put work first over my
: food and Kathleen suggested I post
: something here on the main forum.
: So in an effort to follow
: suggestions here I am.

: Going off program for me is not so
: much about what I eat, it's more
: about timings and connections.
: First the evening meal starts to
: slip because I work late and I'm
: too tired to food shop and prepare
: my next days meal. Then I might
: start delaying lunch, then finally
: breakfast starts to slip until
: eventually I am not eating for a
: couple of hours after I've woken
: and finally I start to skip bf and
: then lunch and before I know it my
: body feels like its been in a
: train wreck. After all that I
: start to withdraw from social
: contact. It's a slippery slope to
: feeling miserable

: I'm realising that keeping connection
: to the community and reaching out
: - even if you don't feel like it -
: is so very important to building
: the foundations of a strong
: recovery. I know that I have been
: using work as an excuse not to
: "do the food" or keep
: active on the lists and that when
: I do both, I feel so much better.

: Right now I'm trying to just focus on
: bf and trust that the anxiety
: I feel about work will pass as the
: food gets better.

: Thanks everyone