To Fiona & Kiki,
I just wanted to add that right now I feel crazy too. I am in a situation that I've never been in & don't have any control over it. I crave sugar even when my stomach is full. For step 1 -What helps me is to fix a 9X13 pan of some breakfast food- like spud & eggs casserole, then I'm ready for the whole week, all I need to do is heat in the microwave. For me a shake in the morning is too much work.thx.

E.

: Hey there Kiki,

: Hang in there girl. I know the out of
: control feeling and it is tough
: ... but you can get through this
: by just keeping doing breakfast.
: Then when you are ready add Step
: 2, etc and at the end of it you
: will be so happy you just took
: each little step. Going through
: tough times like this is hard and
: it is hard to take steps forward.
: But keep breakfast going ... just
: focus on doing that one thing.

: It is early days for us both and
: sometimes we don't see the
: progress we are making day to day.
: It is only after a few months that
: we look back and say "Wow, I
: used to do that and don't
: anymore" and "I don't
: feel like this anymore" and
: really see the progress we have
: actually made. And then we will
: feel such a sense of achievement
: and be encouraged to continue.

: There are so many here with your
: story ... who started just like
: you did with the struggle and with
: the out of control feelings and
: the addiction and all that it
: brings. And so many of those here
: have now been here and steady and
: calm and "radiant" for
: years. You (we) can do it too
: even though it can seem like that
: far off unreachable goal. ... it
: takes time to work through the
: Steps but we can choose to work
: forwards ... time passes anyway
: and we can choose to heal, to put
: one foot in front of the other and
: do one Step at a time.

: I will write in your message too
:

: oh dear, I'm a terrible mess at the
:
: That's because it's not a discipline
: thing. I'm sure you have all the
: discipline in the world but if
: your body is working against you
: you need to heal it first.

: I don't mind at all. I am now
: 45. I first started RR on 1
: January 2009 and worked through
: the steps and became really steady
: around May/June and stayed really
: steady until about
: October/November I think and then
: gradually slipped. My biggest slip
: though was stopping posting and
: not asking for help. I came back
: to Step 1 three weeks ago after
: knowing for a long time that I
: wanted to but just not taking that
: first step. I am so happy I am
: here again. I know what awaits. It
: feels really good to feel steady.
:

: Yes, I have (mostly) avoided
: buying pb too.

: Me too, and yes I do feel I
: have made progress and am so
: thankful.

: Is there anything (anything at
: all ... even something little)
: that you can see that is a
: positive change Kiki? You have
: nothing to lose if you keep going
: Kiki. All you have to keep doing
: is breakfast. You are feeling
: emotions and thoughts from a
: sensitive body. They aren't the
: real you. The real you will emerge
: if you just keep putting one foot
: in front of the other. If you
: quit, you lose even the chance of
: moving forward at all.

: AND you don't have to stop sugar and
: everything you have been doing up
: to this time. You keep doing
: everything else as you always
: have. If you can (and I know it is
: hard) see if you can just continue
: having what you normally have
: during the rest of the day after
: breakfast.

: I am talking to myself as well as to
: you

: I don't really know how to
: help you here ... I can only say
: from the emails on the Yahoo Step
: One breakfast list breakfast seems
: to come easier at different times
: for different people. I know that
: for myself I am getting out of bed
: much easier and wanting breakfast
: now whereas when I started it was
: tough and I had to forceably make
: myself have it because all I
: really wanted was a coffee.

: Maybe, it will just have to be a
: habit for you until you master
: more Steps and the appetite will
: kick in later??

: Yes, coffee and sugar are fine
: ... make it how you love it and
: really enjoy it. Sometimes when I
: stop the guilt and think to myself
: that "yes I am craving
: (whatever it is) ... I will just
: get my favourite and really enjoy
: it because I am going to eat it
: anyway."

: I know it seems that everyone
: just says "breakfast,
: breakfast, breakfast, and don't
: worry about anything else you
: eat" but it does make sense
: to listen to those who have been
: successful and steady for years.
:
:
: Keep posting (it wasn't a ramble at
: all) and hang in there girl ...
: you can do it. I would love to
: hear of something ... even small
: that you have noticed is a
: positive change. That would give
: me and I am sure others
: encouragement too.

: And I would love to hear about
: something you really love to do
: ... your most favourite thing in
: the world? Oh, ... and what
: is your favourite
: breakfast?

: Fiona