Hi everyone,
This is my second attempt to hook up with some online support. I have been to OA, AA, NA, Alanon and Gamanon. I find that AA has the most "recovery" in my area. Rigid, abstinent people make me nervous at OA. They do not have what I want, and no, I am not ashamed that I cannot maintain "perfect" abstinence. (Besides, those rigid people look grumpy and my goal is to be happy, joyous and free.) My shame comes from not being able to stop once I start. Sometimes, I think I can eat 1-2 cookies at an AA meeting and then I miss the whole darn thing because I am thinking about how delicious those cookies were and would anyone notice if I got up and got s'more? I believe I would be thrilled to have a "sugar fix" once a day, that would be mad progress for me. I am on step one, day 2, protein shakes with 1/3 of my protein for the day, which is half my weight in grams. I have been in AA recovery for over 12 years, but this sugar thing is still kicking my a-- and I am trying to surrender --- again.
Thanks for listening,
Mary
: I have been in and out of OA for over
: 30 years and could never get 30
: days of back to back abstinence. I
: have to agree with Kathleen, that
: abstinence is not recovery. It is
: not like alcohol. I have to decide
: every day what I am going to eat.
: I am on step 3 now of RR. I still
: have a long way to go, but I feel
: better about myself AND food plan
: than I have did previously. Yes, I
: have my daily sugar fix, but I can
: feel my body healing and my mind
: gaining a discipline for the first
: time in my life.

: Jeffrey
: ç: I don't know if anyone has tried