oh dear, I'm a terrible mess at the moment. I am at the point where, if it isn't for RR, I don't know what I'l do...the sugar addictions are ruining my life. I can't think straight, I feel like I just emotionally eat sugar all the time but also it's definitely a brain-behaviour connection because unlike normal people I can't stop...I feel so guilty to admit that, I mean heck...I'm 27, shouldn't I have this willpower? Discipline myself? But I don't..=(

Do you mind I ask how old you are, and how long have you been working the RR plan?
Thankfully I'm allergic to tree nuts (except coconut, and of course peanuts but those are legumes) but yes, the PB gets me into trouble. So for now I have to avoid it. I hope I will reach a point in recovery when I can learn to have it again..

I'm happy you ended that relationship, the last thing you need and deserve is any more hardship and toxicity...fighting these sugar blues is hard enough! You sound like you've made so much progress, that's very inspiring =)

I'm STILL on step 1, feel depressed because I started this in April and after a month I feel like I haven't progressed at all. I'm very hard on myself, I just want to give up so much at times, because it is indeed tough to stop the sugars, stop all the things that I've been doing, god knows - my entire life now!

Breakfast is challenging because I still feel so blah when I wake up and never that appetite...so I'm thinking I have to keep forcing it as a habit, and maybe the appetite would kick in eventually.

Is even a little sugar and coffee right now, not a good idea? What about black coffee and black tea unsweetened?

Thanks Fiona! SOrry to ramble on but yes, I need all the help I can get lol!

: Hi Kiki,

: I find I can have a few nuts like
: brazil, cashews and almonds but
: even then I have to consciously
: tell myself to have just have a
: few. I am the same as you ...
: there is something about peanut
: butter that just gets me going
: back and back to the jar for
: "one more spoonful" if I
: start. And you are right, whole
: peanuts aren't as bad but there
: have been times where I haven't
: been able to stop at a handful.

: I have almost completed week 3 of
: Step 1. In 2009 I worked my way
: through the steps and became
: really steady and felt really
: great. I feel being steady gave me
: the ability to get out of an
: abusive relationship. However, I
: started to slip up and gradually
: returned to sugar and coffee. I
: did continue eating protein with
: every meal though. I had been
: thinking I needed to start from
: Step 1 again for some time but
: finally made the commitment 3
: weeks ago.

: Doing the 4 parts of breakfast has
: made a difference in how I feel
: already. Especially having it
: within 60 mins (or as close to
: getting up as I can really seems
: to work best for me). I am already
: getting out of bed easier every
: morning. I am having more energy
: through the day. I am able to
: concentrate better. I feel the
: beginnings of my life starting to
: open up again (I wouldn't call
: myself depressed, but there has
: been a closed sort of dimness to
: my life for a while, despite there
: being no reason for there to be
: ...)

: It is great to be back. So good to
: know that I am on the right path
: again. Though I still feel anxious
: that I will slip up again I am
: hoping that posting and connecting
: with everyone will help me be
: constant long term.

: What about you Kiki? Where are you up
: to? What positives have you
: noticed?

: Great to hear from you,
: Have a happy day,
: Fiona