Hi Kiki,

I find I can have a few nuts like brazil, cashews and almonds but even then I have to consciously tell myself to have just have a few. I am the same as you ... there is something about peanut butter that just gets me going back and back to the jar for "one more spoonful" if I start. And you are right, whole peanuts aren't as bad but there have been times where I haven't been able to stop at a handful.

I have almost completed week 3 of Step 1. In 2009 I worked my way through the steps and became really steady and felt really great. I feel being steady gave me the ability to get out of an abusive relationship. However, I started to slip up and gradually returned to sugar and coffee. I did continue eating protein with every meal though. I had been thinking I needed to start from Step 1 again for some time but finally made the commitment 3 weeks ago.

Doing the 4 parts of breakfast has made a difference in how I feel already. Especially having it within 60 mins (or as close to getting up as I can really seems to work best for me). I am already getting out of bed easier every morning. I am having more energy through the day. I am able to concentrate better. I feel the beginnings of my life starting to open up again (I wouldn't call myself depressed, but there has been a closed sort of dimness to my life for a while, despite there being no reason for there to be ...)

It is great to be back. So good to know that I am on the right path again. Though I still feel anxious that I will slip up again I am hoping that posting and connecting with everyone will help me be constant long term.

What about you Kiki? Where are you up to? What positives have you noticed?

Great to hear from you,
Have a happy day,
Fiona

: Hi Fiona,
: Wow..sounds just like me! So, do you
: avoid all nuts as well or can you
: have peanuts in the 'crunchy'
: chewable form? I find that this is
: not so triggering because it's
: just something about that texture,
: in the jar that's too easy to
: consume wayyyy too much of.

: How is your recovery, have you been
: following RR for awhile?