So much of what you have posted is my current story. Like you, I started with YLD back in 2002, I think. I never did get to step 7 correctly-couldn't master the potato, and have had a love affair with wanting a faster diet. But, back in sugar and trying to start with those fresh eyes-step one.
I don't have the courage to say "I'm back" just yet, because I did that a few times too, and feel like people might think I was crying wolf. Stupid thinking, I know, bc everyone is so supportive. Thanks for you post-it encouraged me to speak up a bit here. LouLou

: Back to Step 1
: Been sooooooo long!!! I have followed
: PNP since 2000. After a long
: stretch, I had been steady on Step
: 7 for over a year+ and all of a
: sudden 2 summers ago I found
: myself in the throws of
: restriction and disordered eating
: again. I caught myself and with an
: out of state move last June,
: gained weight and back into the
: sugar again since then.
: I am here to begin again with
: beginners eyes even though this
: road is familiar. It works. It
: healed me and I need to find that
: place again. I SO want that place
: again SO badly. SO, I am here.
: This time, I will begin again as if I
: have never read a page of PNP or
: YLD.
: I appreciate all of you and so many
: community members I remember from
: the past that are still here
: because IT WORKS - I may not have
: posted much, but I read A LOT.
: You all inspire me,
: And breakfast today was amazing.
: :)