Hi

The way that you describe that you felt off sugars is the reason that in one of her books, Kathleen says that if we are only off sugars for even one week, we will always want to get back there. It is sooo true.

You will get back there!

Love

Jane
xx

: Thanks Jane :)
: I worked up to Steps 6 and was
: blissfully there for 8 weeks with
: no error. Sugar crept back in over
: the course of 2 weeks and now
: another 2 weeks from there, I'm
: back to square one and skipping
: breakfast and having a very hard
: time putting on the brakes. But I
: think I see some light now thanks
: to family support, this forum
: (including a little tough love
: from Kathleen) and reflecting on
: the happiness indicated in my food
: journal. I'm going to boil and
: refrigerate a couple dozen eggs
: tonight and from now on I'm
: putting aside time on Sundays to
: have my breakfasts made for the
: week. I think even as horrible as
: I am in the mornings, installing a
: grab and go regimen will make it
: possible for me to stay on track
: with Step 1 indefinitely.

: Experiencing that kind of
: food-journal-documented calm makes
: it really hard to not want to get
: back there somehow, so I am
: finding a little braking function
: there. There were many benefits I
: hadn't remembered until last
: night-- my home office got cleaned
: for the first time in four years
: when I was off sugar, all my
: relationships were better, I was
: much more "available" to
: the needs of others around me
: which made me very happy inside.
: It was really a great place so now
: instead of focusing on my
: "failure", I'm focusing
: on how good it was to be free and
: how I can't accept giving that up
: just so I can feel guilty and
: crappy for another week. There's
: no winning in that so I'm gonna
: get over myself and "do the
: food." When I failed, I let
: myself believe that I didn't want
: it bad enough, but now I realize
: that if I didn't want it bad
: enough, I wouldn't be so upset
: when I defaulted-- in the future I
: intend to use that energy to get
: back up and go back to the drawing
: board :)