hi Nicole
I had some times during my steps that I thought I'd never get out of the hole I was in. I also thought I was the one person in the world it was not going to work for, and that it was all very well for everyone else, they didnt have my things to contend with

gain perspective? hm ( thinking) Didnt have any. Nor expectations or anything, all I could see was how fat and anxious I was. I just kept getting the message 'do breakfast' which made me feel quite nuts, but I did it anyway, and got to listen some more ...

or maybe I can only expect
: that it's just going to be much
: harder this time and biting the
: bit hard is the only way to begin
: again?

without sugar and wobbly steps, I felt like everything was magnified.

sugar feelings make us feel really low, and also we forget. And get really hard on ourselves! How to begin again? would you like to choose your easiest bit of breakfast and come and share with us.. have some fruit as well if you like? Going 'back to breakfast' was my best move ever and not nearly as difficult as I thought it would be. Just breakfast.

heres what helped me:
Posting Every day. Somewhere - for me I chose forum, is there a place you feel at home? Its that connection that just does something magic.
Listening and sharing, joining in.. noticing someone elses breakfast, sharing my own. Asking for help..

As for whats in the book, as I am a reader and a bit drawn to words, I found a lot in my PnP and YLD, re reading that is very helpful for me Do you have PnP? I sometimes read the breakfast chapter over just because theres always something relevant to me and what I'm at right now in there!