Gigi, as one introvert to another, I feel I know a bit about where you are coming from

thinking... you might as well have told me to stop breathing as thinking, and I pondered each step thoroughly - when it came to BE I thought and thought LOL it was just so fascinating.

and none of it made any sense, either, which made it all the more intriguing. Butt somewhere along the way I realised I could harness all that *energy* and turn it round and make it work for me.

I stopped trying to understand it ( torture!! LOL)

so I can see in retrospect of course, that if you eat, wait, let the step work a while, your experience will make it clear in later steps.

what helped, later on, was 2 classes: magical introversion and beta endorphin. I learnt so much! but its also true to say I am glad I did them in step 6 -7 as I was able to process them a bit differently.

I was also a bit bothered that 'steady' would ruin my thinking and pondering circuits. I used to get so enthused by things and it was a bit of a driven thing. I was just desperate to findout and discover.

its different now though, its not *driven* so in some ways its more pleasurable, though I miss the intensity

On my early steps I just couldnt see that it was building the foundation for understanding the rest. its ony now that I see what you are doing right now is incredibly useful - so do pat yourself on the back for that