Hi Siobhan,

I'm sorry you are struggling so much. That sure can be frustrating.

You've done a great job hanging on to breakfast! When you did the quick 6 weeks, did you notice a difference? I know even the memory of feeling better can motivate me. And if you noticed a difference, instead of thinking about weight loss, think about how much better you felt?

It sounds like breakfast is pretty solid. Have you thought of going on to step 2? It doesn't have to take years to make it through the steps, but it does take some focus and some movement. The longer I have done the program, the more second nature it has become.

Colette

: Hi everyone,

: I recently got an e-mail from
: Kathleen checking in to see how I
: was doing on the program and I
: decided to post about my
: struggles.

: To recap, I came across RR in January
: and immediately read all the books
: and connected with so much. I
: leaped into step 1 and went
: through the steps too quickly
: because it "felt right".
: I was so sick of feeling lousy and
: was ready for a change. I got to
: step 6 in about 6 weeks and
: because I had a four day weekend,
: I decided to detox. At that point
: I had been 3 meals with protein,
: brown, veggies and only having
: sugar after meals. I detoxed and
: about one week later had a major
: BE crash. I couldn't get out of
: bed for 2 days. So I asked for
: help and was told to go back to
: step one and go slowly...

: I have been re-doing step one for
: over a month now and feel like I
: am only moving backwards. I added
: back in sugar and just like that
: am back to bingeing. I got the 4
: parts of breakfast down - I eat
: within 30 minutes of waking every
: day, I have 2 eggs, 2 pieces of
: Ezekial toast and 1 scoop of
: Restore with unsweetened choc
: almond milk and a splash of
: sweetened choc almond milk. That
: has not wavered. I even went away
: for a weekend and have been out to
: breakfast and that has been fine.

: But now I am bingeing all other meals
: and starting to lose my appetite
: for breakfast. It use to be
: enjoyable and now I am forcing
: myself to eat. I have gained even
: more weight, have gotten more
: depressed and feel ready to give
: up and try the paleo diet again. I
: know long term that I need to keep
: doing the steps but I just don't
: have the patience and I am so
: tired of feeling so badly.

: I feel puffy, bloated and just lost
: in my body. I have been
: embarrassed to do much because of
: my weight. I feel like my #1
: priority is losing weight. I know
: logically that any diet I do will
: just fail because of my brain
: chemistry, but I don't feel like I
: have years to get through the
: steps. I want to lose weight now.
: I want to feel better now. I don't
: know how much longer I can go on
: otherwise. It is starting to
: interfere with my daily life and I
: really don't want to go on
: anti-depressants.

: I know that this program works and I
: know it would help me a lot. But I
: just can't relax into the steps
: when I keep feeling worse. I can't
: help worrying about my weight and
: depression. I can't get past my
: sugar sensitive tendencies.

: I feel hopeless!