hi G., I really love your post for many reasons: first of all you let us see the process of your own special healing. Next, you are sharing the baby steps. I love this. I think many of us here perhaps hide away from the forum when their food isn't just right, then we're back when we are stronger. (like, who, Janine? Uh, yeah...me. I have done that!) Sharing this will really help inspire others, especially who are stuck in a kind of all or nothing thinking. Inching towards...love this!
Take care and thanks,
Janine

: I had a big moment yesterday, you may
: laugh. I've really been struggling
: lately, everything seems so hard.
: Yesterday I remembered cottage
: cheese. I quit eating it months
: ago because I thought I shouldn't
: eat dairy (not true) but then
: yesterday I remembered how much I
: like it and then I remembered how
: it packs a lot of protein and then
: I remembered that it doesn't have
: to be cooked!! I think I walked
: around with a little smile on my
: face the rest of the day.

: Other positive stuff amid the
: negative - I took the time and
: pushed myself into the kitchen to
: make a big meatloaf and I cooked
: enough chicken for two pot pie
: recipes. It's all cut up and in
: the freezer. I know I'm much more
: likely to cook if I know the
: chicken is already done.

: I made myself cook a vegetable with
: lunch several days- I've been
: skipping that lately. And I'm
: still amazed that I'm now eating
: oatmeal without sugar, just
: raisins. Also a little salt, an
: egg, some butter. I find it very
: comforting right now. It's not
: enough protein for breakfast but
: it's better than fritos. I have
: plans for blueberries and apples.
: I tried nut butter and protein
: powder, didn't like it.

: I'm now in the habit of making a pot
: of brown rice every week.

: My food is not as "good" as
: it was but I'm hanging in there.
: I'm inching my way back. I can do
: this.

: Gigi