I had a big moment yesterday, you may laugh. I've really been struggling lately, everything seems so hard. Yesterday I remembered cottage cheese. I quit eating it months ago because I thought I shouldn't eat dairy (not true) but then yesterday I remembered how much I like it and then I remembered how it packs a lot of protein and then I remembered that it doesn't have to be cooked!! I think I walked around with a little smile on my face the rest of the day.

Other positive stuff amid the negative - I took the time and pushed myself into the kitchen to make a big meatloaf and I cooked enough chicken for two pot pie recipes. It's all cut up and in the freezer. I know I'm much more likely to cook if I know the chicken is already done.

I made myself cook a vegetable with lunch several days- I've been skipping that lately. And I'm still amazed that I'm now eating oatmeal without sugar, just raisins. Also a little salt, an egg, some butter. I find it very comforting right now. It's not enough protein for breakfast but it's better than fritos. I have plans for blueberries and apples. I tried nut butter and protein powder, didn't like it.

I'm now in the habit of making a pot of brown rice every week.

My food is not as "good" as it was but I'm hanging in there. I'm inching my way back. I can do this.

Gigi