I've been binging on sugar and gaining weight - about a pound a week for the last few months. I'm not sure what happened - I had been feeling good and maintaining a pretty low body weight for about a year, and not having binges or feeling attached to sweets. Something happened and I lost control. That's why I'm here. I have been doing step 1 for about a month and started journaling a few weeks ago.

I know logically this is reversible, not the end of the world, and that doing the food, healing and eventually moving away from sugar is the real solution. Not just for my weight, but for the painful feelings I am struggling with, the cravings, and for feeling so compulsive and out of control around food (really, sugar).

I am asking for support. I feel so helpless and disappointed in myself about the weight gain and the sugar binges. I feel sad and ashamed (I work in nutrition and I'm supposed to know how to take care of myself and set an example.) I feel afraid that maybe this is a sign that I'm getting depressed again. I feel desperate to try to keep my calories at a reasonable level (truly reasonable, not trying to lose weight right now, just to stop gaining) and then crazy when I fail and find myself binging.

If you've been through something like this, can you tell me it gets better? I am hoping for some reassurance. thank you for reading!

Bevy