I am really torn on this. You know I value your opinion more than anything. You have never steered me wrong. And I know you are right, I can not argue that.

Exercise wise it is the only thing that even sounds interesting to me. The thought of going to the gym (we have access to four gyms as part of our HOA) just makes me only want to stay home. So I want to find something I can do at home. I used to do yoga at the studio until I had to stop but that is hard because you have to work around their schedule. At home I can work around my meal schedule.

I know I will not push it to the extreme (at least that is what the healing me is thinking). Because that spiky feeling scares me now. But with my history of exercise addiction... I am just torn. I want to do this to prove to myself that I can do it with out letting it consume me. To exercise normally with out pushing myself to the limit. but I am also afraid that it is like saying oh I feel good I am healing what can one cookie hurt. I am very torn. I know I need to add exercise to my program I need to learn to do it in a healthy way with out doing it obsevisly but I think with me that is the concern with just about any exercise program.

Kari