Hi J

I sure get what you mean about the romance of meaning. I was always that way, or analysing things and thinking I had come up with a new solution to things etc. Now my life is far more straightforward and I just feel as though I am living now, all of that seems now to have taken up so much unnecessary energy, almost like a distraction from life, even an excuse to not live.

I definitely prefer the new me.

Love

Jane
xx

: well...

: it's been 1 year and 8 months since i
: found the pnp book. my wife has
: mostly adjusted to the new me. we
: still have some old lingering
: habits, like worrying when things
: don't go just right and how I may
: react to bad news, or a change in
: plans. my kids have forgotten that
: i used to get grumpy without
: protein. they still remind me to
: eat but i don't think they
: remember the arguments caused by
: sugar issues.

: i'm getting back into the workforce
: with other people after spending
: the last 7 years working alone. i
: was a high school teacher about 10
: years ago when my inability to
: function after high carb lunches
: first became evident. now i'm back
: in the classroom. eating nuts and
: milk at 3rd period and a ceasar
: salad for lunch is making it
: possible to make it through the
: day without a hitch.

: I rarely do the potato anymore. it
: still works when i do use it, but
: mostly the fear of not knowing why
: i was so depressed allows me to
: feel sluggish without upset. today
: for instance, i haven't been
: eating well, and i feel a bit
: slow, but i think the greatest
: problem pre-potato "my wife
: calls it" was not knowing why
: I was angry and depressed. now
: that i know its dietary, i don't
: feel guilty about being sad. i
: also know that i don't have to
: change my life to "fix"
: myself. all I have to do is eat.

: its amazingly stupid how far we have
: come as a society from the
: obvious. human needs include
: sleep, warmth, sex, water, and
: FOOD. how we all forgot this i'll
: never know but i'm thankful pnp
: reminded us.

: i used to identify with the character
: on the tv show house. he was crazy
: and obsessed and sad, and so was
: i. i just watched an episode that
: i hadn't seen since before my diet
: change. i guess that's why i'm
: writing. while i'd never want to
: go back to my old life i must
: admit i miss the romance of the
: search for meaning. now that i'm
: mentally stable, i don't seem to
: think about such things any more.
: i feel for other people though who
: seem to be where i once was.

: anyway, just a hello.

: i haven't forgotten you all. i didn't
: write often at the start of this
: but i read many of your posts and
: took solace in the fact that i
: wasn't alone.

: well... i probably should go cook up
: a steak now.

: talk again soon.

: j