well...

it's been 1 year and 8 months since i found the pnp book. my wife has mostly adjusted to the new me. we still have some old lingering habits, like worrying when things don't go just right and how I may react to bad news, or a change in plans. my kids have forgotten that i used to get grumpy without protein. they still remind me to eat but i don't think they remember the arguments caused by sugar issues.

i'm getting back into the workforce with other people after spending the last 7 years working alone. i was a high school teacher about 10 years ago when my inability to function after high carb lunches first became evident. now i'm back in the classroom. eating nuts and milk at 3rd period and a ceasar salad for lunch is making it possible to make it through the day without a hitch.

I rarely do the potato anymore. it still works when i do use it, but mostly the fear of not knowing why i was so depressed allows me to feel sluggish without upset. today for instance, i haven't been eating well, and i feel a bit slow, but i think the greatest problem pre-potato "my wife calls it" was not knowing why I was angry and depressed. now that i know its dietary, i don't feel guilty about being sad. i also know that i don't have to change my life to "fix" myself. all I have to do is eat.

its amazingly stupid how far we have come as a society from the obvious. human needs include sleep, warmth, sex, water, and FOOD. how we all forgot this i'll never know but i'm thankful pnp reminded us.

i used to identify with the character on the tv show house. he was crazy and obsessed and sad, and so was i. i just watched an episode that i hadn't seen since before my diet change. i guess that's why i'm writing. while i'd never want to go back to my old life i must admit i miss the romance of the search for meaning. now that i'm mentally stable, i don't seem to think about such things any more. i feel for other people though who seem to be where i once was.

anyway, just a hello.

i haven't forgotten you all. i didn't write often at the start of this but i read many of your posts and took solace in the fact that i wasn't alone.

well... i probably should go cook up a steak now.

talk again soon.

j