: Well I tried to eat the same amount
: of sugar every day at the same
: time and it worked for a while.
: Then I was off for two weeks on a
: horrible binge. I can NOT control
: this. Once the sugar is in my
: body, the addiction takes over and
: then I am completely without
: limits. I did manage to eat
: breakfast the morning after every
: day and that was a minor miracle.

: So now i am day 4 off sugar with all
: the attendant feeling awful I
: rather go through the pain of
: withdraw then have another cycle
: of super binges. it seems to be
: the lesser of two evils. I am
: working on Step 2 now and not
: saying i will never eat sugar
: again, but I hate being in this
: state of limbo. I am not punishing
: myself, and want this program to
: work. However I can't imagine
: eating sugar in any kind of
: controlled way.

: Jeffrey

Jeffrey,

Have you wondered why we suggest doing the steps the way
they are written?

You know, you are simply doing the same ole, same ole pattern.
Putting your body into shock isn't going to heal it.

A very large portion of what the steps are about is helping you get
to a place of surrender, where you might trust that your own brain
is not going to give you the best information about how to heal your addiction

I sure would love to support you in that.

They way you are looking at this is simply another face of the same insanity...the part that says,
*I* know better than anyone how to fix this.

Warmly and with lots of compassion.

Kathleen