Okay I am starting over right now. Three years ago I started the program and did exactly what Kathleen says not to. I thought 'hmmm sugar is the issue well okay bye bye sugar and whites'I did well for 1 year and then as you an guess I let sugar back in. I have played with all the steps but have not really focused on getting them 100% steady. I came across a quote the other day that reminded me of my journey here. "You can not cross the ocean merely by standing on the edge and staring at the water" I feel that is what I have been doing.

So I am starting over. But my lessons have not been lost. I used to never eat and many times would go 24 hours with out eating. But now I eat. Most days I get 3 meals in. The only times I don't seem to is on the weekends if I sleep in. I end up eating only two meals. Yes I eat three meals but they are not full meals and the timing of breakfast is off. Lunch timing and dinner is not too bad.

I have not touched a soda in at least 7 months and have not had any caffeine of any kind for that time either. I used to drink several diet sodas a day. I think that the reason I have not had any or any desire to is that I feel the bad effects of the caffeine pretty much right away unlike sugar which I don't feel the effects right away.

And I have not touched alcohol since I started the program three years ago. I was not much of a drinker but it was in my life from time to time.

Tonight I was getting my breakfast ready and thought oh I better get my journal out as well. Nope! I need to focus on breakfast and get that solid and then go from there.

Kari