: Hi Kathy,
Sometimes exciting and sometimes not so. I always thought alcoholics caused a stir but looking back, I was pretty dramatic and thought I was the one in control. Though I am feeling better , I do really want a lifelong solution not another fix. So I am still worried, especially now that I see how mixed up I really am and how much I contributed to my own chaotic life. So though the food can make my body feel better, I wonder if I really can make me have a healthy choice or have healthy feelings? I tried the gamut of counciling with behavior mod, changing thinking, alanon, many self help books, ..... Is it a combination? When I think of all that it is overwhelming. Then I want comfort and that is either calling someone to be nurtured or accepted or eating. Other people don't have to do that. I can hear parents say quit babying yourself you are just lazy get up and do something. I just had a nice dinner so I don't think I am crazy right now. I did crave sugar and went to the store right before dinner just to get a chocolate donut. I just had 3 bites than threw it away and ate a banana. Then had dinner of 3 turkey meatballs and a redbeet salad. I had brown rice for breakfast and lunch and didn't want any more. As I fell asleep after lunch , I am thinking too many carbs in a cup of brown rice?

: Isn't it exciting to start making
: those connections! Those slips
: sure can be great reminders. I
: also notice things like blood
: sugar crashes, and BE crashes from
: stress or too much excitement. I
: don't mind the reminders because
: otherwise I'm afraid I would get
: cocky...forget...and find myself
: stuck again.

: Glad you are able to take things
: slowly...and aren't anxious about
: it anymore. I was so nervous that
: I wouldn't be able to maintain
: this, but I've been around since
: 2001...it still amazes me!

: Colette