Healing is grand!!!!

: Friday was my 40th wedding
: anniversary. My husband and I were
: both sick, coughing and hacking.
: But my four children had planned
: to take us out to celebrate our
: anniversary and that was so sweet
: of them so we decided to just
: rough it and go. We ended up at a
: very very nice restaurant, the
: kind I dont go into. As soon as I
: saw it was a fancy steak place I
: decided to have that steak I had
: been cravin (I think I have eaten
: 2 steaks my whole life and I am 58
: so for me to crave steak was just
: very very weird. Until recently I
: had seen them as toxic but trying
: to get that warped thought out of
: my brain). As we walked through
: the door, there was the dessert
: tray layered with fancy desserts
: on fancy plates. It was the
: weirdest thing and the coolest
: thing ever that I looked at that
: tray and had no response
: whatsoever other than seeing it as
: a "lesser food." I
: marched right back and sat down,
: ordered a New York Sirloin and a
: baked potato and man, I enjoyed
: the heck out of that thing. I
: never even once had a thought of
: having dessert. About 6 months ago
: I would have been thinking about
: which of those fancy desserts I
: wanted and how to get through the
: meal and order one without being
: embarrassed that that was what I
: really wanted. I know it sounds
: like a small thing but to be
: sitting there full and satisfied
: after eating half the steak and
: half the potato was the best
: feeling ever. To not be enslaved
: by the thought of dessert made me
: feel so normal. I have not gotten
: too far on the steps of the
: program. But I keep trying and I
: keep coming back for breakfast. I
: keep loading up on proteins and
: that has kept me away from binges
: on sugar. When I do eat a little
: sugar, I dont go down a deep well
: of guilt and destruction. I rise
: again and eat breakfast, which
: sets me on a straight path. So
: just the little bit I am doing did
: something to my brain so that it
: had that different reaction to
: that dessert tray. Kind of like an
: out of body experience....this
: person was acting normal and felt
: normal....no baggage...no
: cravings.....just satisfaction and
: freedom.