This program is helping with my everyday life. I have been wanting to call an old male friend that I haven't talked to in years. Actually, the last time we spoke he wished me well but asked me not to call him again. Why? because my mind was so messed up. I was trying to lean on him for what I don't know and he was so frustrated with me. And now I know it was the sugar.
So now that I am a little better, I sometimes want to 'get back into the world and tell him and others what the problem was and how better I am now'.
So I was going to email him today. Then I 'felt' my energy and the thought of contacting him wouls sort of drain my energy and I didn't want to lose my energy on that now. So I didn't email him. I want to , but I also like the good feeling I have in myself and don't want to lose it. It is like energy will go out from me. And I can feel it, more importantly I have enough to say no now. I wonder if I will have enough energy to contact people and still be energized, like not giving part of myself away.