Kath is in Perth. Don't be confused. She is doing summer while we have winter.
Well actually I never left, but haven't had much time to write lately.
I have finished a 4 week stint of relief work in the school library. I and a volunteer have completed a full stocktake of the entire collection that children can borrow, reconciling what is on the shelves to what is on the computer catalogue, and removing from the catalogue all the items that have gone missing. Everything
is ready for the end of the school year and summer holidays This has been a mammoth task.
The library lady I was relieving came back to work today. I
handed back over to her and I am (relatively) free. She was fine with the changes I had made that other staff were apprehensive of her reaction to. I was bold, and confident, fully doing the task I was employed to fill, making policy decisions and prepared to wear their consequences. I have learned new things about the computer system and was teaching the librarian this morning when she came back and I handed over. My energy and enthusiasm was steady, as was my sense of humour. I have completed
a stocktaking report for the principal, and walked away free.
Clear boundaries allow me to leave, with no regrets or lingering. My daughter leaves primary school now, and I have said that
although I am available for paid relief work, I am not going to volunteer at the school next year when I have no children there.
Compare all of this with 5 years ago.
I was having panic attacks, we had recently moved to the city and I felt permanently overwhelmed. I volunteered covering books in the school library where I had a quiet table in a secluded corner by myself,
and could leave when I had enough. I gradually got more confident, and stayed for longer. After a while I learned some things about the computer system and catalogue, and was able to do things on days the librarian was not there. When she went on leave, they paid me to fill in for her. This year I have worked about 1/4 of the school year, earned money, proved to myself that I can manage working part time away from home.
What a difference doing the food makes.
Kath